Over a random chat, me and my 2 other online girl friends have agreed to send out little gifts to each other whenever, as in no occasion needed to do so.
So today I got the honor to get my first surprise.
It was a black velvety lingerie.
Nothing overly seductive, but when i put in on..I suddenly feel sexy.
Did I really say that?
Yes. I did, didn’t I.
Well, that’s a progress.
Here’s the truth.
It’s hard for me to feel sexy.
Not merely because I have an average chest size where I have to put all the effort in the world to create an image of my cleavage or cause my curve is now more like folds…
But because I was told ugly. Useless.
Incapable. Stupid. Unworthy.
So the word ‘Sexy’ has been long gone in my dictionary.
But tonight, I got it back.
And it was not just the word Sexy, but also the word ‘Worthy’.
Is it the lingerie?
Part of it yes.
Another part is self.
It is still a long journey to get more positive words back to my dictionary, but they are coming back.
And I am looking forward to hearing them and applying them in my life.
Thank you Ary for a beautiful surprise.
There are truly angels on earth and you are one of them.